Paradoxes

You said you needed me like oxygen, but that you needed room to breathe.
You told me that I lightened your load, but was a burden and a chain.
You said I was your lighthouse, but that you're in a really dark place.
You said I was your true north, but then said everything went south.
You said I helped you heal, but only caused you pain.
What did you mean then,
When you said you loved me?